so i was pulled over... my car smelled of marijuana... cop searched my car... found my grinder... charged me with possession of drug paraphernalia... and i been sober ever since
I MADE THIS TO CELEBRATE MY SOBRIETY
it high key was a good thing because i was turning to certain things to deal with certain thoughts... instead of forgiving myself and letting things go I was just numbing it all away you know... couple days in of just facing it I realized i had wasted a ot of time being a little BITCH
i know my past focused on my future
Sunday, August 27, 2017
Monday, July 24, 2017
you must already know
even tho this video the reason I had to red shirt my junior outdoor season im happy i did it
tumblr
also my tumblr is now kikegiraffes alter ego... updated frequently
CHECK IT OUT... click ont the fat pic of me doug n shane in the benz
CHECK IT OUT... click ont the fat pic of me doug n shane in the benz
flower boyyyyy
this album makes me so happy from start to finish. tyler has by far been the most influential person in my life and it has been refreshing to have some fresh guidance.
after who knows how many times of listening to the album this became one of those songs ill prolly love forevcr.
"this is one sided"
summer wont be complete til I can get my friends together to listen to it round a bonfire
after who knows how many times of listening to the album this became one of those songs ill prolly love forevcr.
"this is one sided"
summer wont be complete til I can get my friends together to listen to it round a bonfire
one week left
Well damn life is a fucking roller coaster.
I have only 5 days left in the summer pre law program. Its been a trip... a trip im so thankful for. Took me out of this hell like environment and surrounded me with great people all on the same hunt. I am so thankful to have made all these friends regardless if a majority of them will be getting on a plane to travel hundreds of miles away in less than a week. I dont think any of them are aware of how big a impact the made on my life this summer... all the good times, smiles, laughs, OD's, and trips to McAllisters. I will miss them all and try my best to keep up with those in Houston.
YOOOO holy fuck turns out one of the kids I clicked with and been super cool with is fucking youtube famous.... HE MAKES CARTOONS!! My dude makes a living off youtube and still pursuing his education... unique individual that has only pushed me to be a better me.
The last year of my life has made me a complete believer of destiny. It's crazy how everything falls into place... how you have to go through stuff to learn stuff... how you got to fail to know how to win. I got my second opportunity to work my way into the music industry following my mentor Toby. So far I've got to assist on set for Maxo's new video... you'll see when you see. I have also got to run an entire pop up shop for the Champ aka Charlo. I also was part of making this video for him S/O kevin.
Me and cupid had a conversation... after he apologized... told him to not shoot his arrow my way. I don't have time to pour myself into a endless hole right now.... as it is already I only get five - six hours of sleep a night... as tiring as it I love it.. im doing me to the fullest! my zen not completely together but ive been expressing myself with no restraints.... and without hesitation or approval ive been doing everything I want. its be revitalizing
this my favorite song... i listen to it everyday
im so nervous for my last year at HBU. i nons think ima even be there much really. trying to convince doug to take on these tailgate trips with me so i can go visit all the friends i have at different schools and get drunk with them before we graduate.
.... but fr tho my little sister is moving out in like twenty something days.... which is awesome! shout out to her and how awesome she is.... she already got to go up there and coach a camp.. she is literally my best friend and I have never been more proud of anyone..... buttttttttttt my mom will officially be by herself :( she installed this new security system acting like she not even thinking bout how she going to be solo dolo... i can already anticipate cody being mad af at me because of how often I'm going to be dipping off to go make sure shes okay.
I know she'll be okay im just so fucking terrible at being alone that i think shes the same way so i want to be there to prevent all that......
enough exploration into my head... cause things really not that complicated. i'm alive and well.. my family too... ive had a great summer and look forward to what life has in store next
ENRIQUE YOU SO FUCKING LAME BRO
I have only 5 days left in the summer pre law program. Its been a trip... a trip im so thankful for. Took me out of this hell like environment and surrounded me with great people all on the same hunt. I am so thankful to have made all these friends regardless if a majority of them will be getting on a plane to travel hundreds of miles away in less than a week. I dont think any of them are aware of how big a impact the made on my life this summer... all the good times, smiles, laughs, OD's, and trips to McAllisters. I will miss them all and try my best to keep up with those in Houston.
YOOOO holy fuck turns out one of the kids I clicked with and been super cool with is fucking youtube famous.... HE MAKES CARTOONS!! My dude makes a living off youtube and still pursuing his education... unique individual that has only pushed me to be a better me.
The last year of my life has made me a complete believer of destiny. It's crazy how everything falls into place... how you have to go through stuff to learn stuff... how you got to fail to know how to win. I got my second opportunity to work my way into the music industry following my mentor Toby. So far I've got to assist on set for Maxo's new video... you'll see when you see. I have also got to run an entire pop up shop for the Champ aka Charlo. I also was part of making this video for him S/O kevin.
i think about certain shit everyday... no matter how hard i try not to... i sometimes stay busy as fuck to not let myself think about it.... well that was before... now when it happens i let it happen all the way... fully let the most vivid and painful thoughts sweep over my body just to prove that it really cant hurt me... I saw you with your new dude and I consciously had no control my heart started beating like I had just got done PR'ing in the 5k... Im glad you found someone to supply for your addiction itd be a shame to let your prescription go to waste... Thanks for the motivation though because theres a fire burning inside of me that nothing can put out.
Me and cupid had a conversation... after he apologized... told him to not shoot his arrow my way. I don't have time to pour myself into a endless hole right now.... as it is already I only get five - six hours of sleep a night... as tiring as it I love it.. im doing me to the fullest! my zen not completely together but ive been expressing myself with no restraints.... and without hesitation or approval ive been doing everything I want. its be revitalizing
this my favorite song... i listen to it everyday
im so nervous for my last year at HBU. i nons think ima even be there much really. trying to convince doug to take on these tailgate trips with me so i can go visit all the friends i have at different schools and get drunk with them before we graduate.
.... but fr tho my little sister is moving out in like twenty something days.... which is awesome! shout out to her and how awesome she is.... she already got to go up there and coach a camp.. she is literally my best friend and I have never been more proud of anyone..... buttttttttttt my mom will officially be by herself :( she installed this new security system acting like she not even thinking bout how she going to be solo dolo... i can already anticipate cody being mad af at me because of how often I'm going to be dipping off to go make sure shes okay.
I know she'll be okay im just so fucking terrible at being alone that i think shes the same way so i want to be there to prevent all that......
enough exploration into my head... cause things really not that complicated. i'm alive and well.. my family too... ive had a great summer and look forward to what life has in store next
ENRIQUE YOU SO FUCKING LAME BRO
Tuesday, May 30, 2017
uni of hou
I moved into a freshmen style suite at UofH today. Something possessed me a couple weeks ago to last minute apply to this pre-law program here. I been looking forward to it because I been looking for some direction..... if thats it. Boredom consumes me as soon as no one is around. I haven't been good to myself. Thought this would help turn things around but it has been pretty weak so far. My roommate lives two minutes off campus so he didn't even move anything in. I'm solo dolo.
So this song. Its nice n all but its the intro that connected. Forgiving yourself the first step to getting over the past. From this scar on my arm to the fact my best friend (in the passenger seat of the tumblr pic) gone MIA on me. Such a common theme in my life really. From bringing people back into my life like they supposed to be here to snitching to falling thru on promises. I def deserve worst friend of 2k17. I would've said spring semester but the way this summer going its def all 2k17.
Friends I was hanging out with everyday a week ago don't even text me back today. They let the snap streak continue a couple days after they stopped texting back then let that go to.
Yes I still fucking think about you everyday. But I did delete all of our pictures off of photo booth today. I think that's the last of it. Really been craving contact with a person. Guess Im supposed to like build a relationship with someone. Get to know someone new. Idk why but that shit don't happen often at all. As much as I want it though I don't think I really need it.
This the wave I been on. My friend sent me Kevin Abstracts MTV1987 mixtape the day it came out... the day I was packing my stuff to move out my house and start college. He's got his own show in Viceland now. I fucking love Viceland. This part is just so I can type this out.
i forgive myself
its alot easier said then done but here's my best try
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